Honour your own season (we move, regardless!) 🌱 // transcript for ‘I Feel For You’ podcast episode 60

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Hi darling! How goes it? How do you feel?

Special shoutout to friends in North America who “sprang forward” an hour and are currently living in the future! (time for one of my fave memes? Always! - it’s a layered one for fellow fans of 90s rnb)

- how’s spring feeling for you?

I saw my first bluebell this morning as i walked to the coffeeshop to write you this lovenote. First of all, isn’t it early for bluebells?! (not complaining, just a lil concerned) but also, a hearty thanks to my Patrons who paid for this coffee and i appreciate it very very much. Yeah, i’m still drinking and very much into coffee...it’s, a part of me now, like my sheep Hamish which is a storytime you might know about, or if not, perhaps i’ll share it sometime! Whew, that got dark real quick- let’s bring this back to the now, for now is what we have and there are infinite possibilities available to us in this very moment, and i’m happy to share this second in your company!

First, a short update on a couple of things, then some links to things i made for you this week, plus some stuff that i hope lights you up.

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So, whilst we’re on Patreon, i just want to say that this community feels like a wonderful space to connect and share practices, truly grateful for your support and hope anyone interested and curious might consider joining our members space!

As many of you know, creating accessible and inclusive offerings has always been central to my work. I do not choose to use an advertising model, i am self funded and independent in every way, and I would love to continue to create my vision independent from commercial and limiting institutions. Especially the racist ones cause - you know - these 10 years have been a lot!

I'm looking for collaboration and encouragement that is tangible, authentic, directly in relationship with my community, the people who want to support me, which will enable me to build and grow and take things to the next level.

This is where you come in! For the cost of one coffee ☕️, lunch 🥑 or dinner 🍽 a month, you can provide support for me to continue keeping the majority of my work free and accessible and inclusive.

This Patreon space gives me hope that despite my illness which has prevented me from traveling so much, i can still continue to do my work, build community and connect with good people, and we can cultivate meaningful and real change, wherever in the planet we are.

Which leads me to a storytime moment: It’s funny, cause this week i dug out some old things i’ve made when dreaming of creating this online community space over the years, including videos, writing i’d filed away, plus a “manifesto” (lol!)

I was struck at how resonant all of the work still felt. Surprised at how relevant and present and true and familiar what i was writing and speaking was, what was reflected back to me from these archives was stuff i still feel and speak and write about each day, still.

So revisiting these old ideas, dreams and plans warmed my heart - the feelings and passion and yearnings had never gone away, they were simply seemingly dormant awhile. But very much alive beneath the surface (kind of like the bulbs underground that are now pushing up through the dirt to show themselves - ahh, thank you spring blooms...i appreciate this remembering).

I guess i’ve been so scared of doing this online community space, but you know what they say, the stuff that thrills and excites you often also scares you in some way. I also thought perhaps i was alone in my dreams of community being able to span beyond time and space. Even though i knew it was true and had evidence of it being real (thank YOU for being here, however we have met!) and had tried and tested versions of this dream in online programmes (shout out to each of you being a part of those especially the live hangouts LOLZ)

✨You should know i’m listening to Caribou’s Cloud Song rn. Which feels quite apt…. 🎵

Anyway.

What’s the point of this meander?! I think it’s about trusting in timing and cycles. Knowing that the growth is there, still. Just like spring and the return to more light after such a dark winter, i believe the things we want to do and show up for in the world are ever present, and within cycles of their own.

Sometimes we might have wanted something that hasn’t quite blossomed.

- Perhaps we’re thinking about a goal we had to feel more fit this year but haven’t quite made it a habit.

- Or there’s a yearning to prioritise and put intentional focus into taking care of ourselves and our healing. But we haven’t quite managed to find the right therapist yet.

- Or we had a dream to start a blog but the overwhelm of starting it is holding us back (is that you? If it is, reply to this mail- i have something for you that might support you!)

✨Please excuse me but i have to link you to this Caribou song

because i’m now at the crescendo and it feels very vital that you hear it and feel it too because it’s making me emotional - sorry just your regular pisces sun gemini moon emo sidenote:::...Sense this sign is urging me to get on with the crescendo of this letter…(that was my capricorn rising bringing me back) 🎵

So, a question to ponder:

I wonder if there’s something that has perhaps been laying dormant for you that is asking you to show up in a different way?

It doesn’t matter what it is. What matters is what you do with it. Are you answering the call? (Acknowledging The Thing, counts as “answering the call”). Paying attention to any part of The Thing is also action! Filing it away so you can revisit it at a later date counts too! Basically we are talking about showing up for yourself and the things you want to give attention to.

Sidenote but linked: I was reading somewhere this week (- ooh it was a great interview with Ashley C. Ford again!) where Ashley offered advice for someone who wants to be “successful” (i would add my own caveat here that you define success, start there!) and they said, - let me paste this screenshot in:

Every third day is daily enough!

Consider that! An offering to that dream!

Is there resistance?
Are you telling yourself “it’s too late”?
or
“I can’t give The Thing attention because if it were that important I would have done it already…”

These are stories and i truly believe that sometimes we protect ourselves with them, to save face or disappointment at the potential idea of being vulnerable and putting ourselves out there...sound raw and familiar? I’m poking salt in my own wounds here too so hope it’s not too jarring, rather, imagine me holding out my (clean and freshly washed, always, and forever 🧼) hand in offering, so you might feel encouraged and comforted.

My dreams for cultivating online community never went away, even though i told myself “it’s been years. I don’t think my people are going to join me. I am scared. I have to actually share this Thing and ask people to be involved which feels impossible and horrible! Will people think i’m an idealistic wanker?” (possibly, and they might be right…) etc etc etc

I tried different experiments with the online community, and even though they went well, my dream has been to create an extension of the work i’ve been doing this past decade in real life but be accessible online: building community for the long term that’s inclusive, sustainable, real and safe space to practice, with monthly deepenings. Connection. Space. Inspiration. Joy. And so much support and encouragement to show up as yourself, wherever you’re at. Feeling free to be more you.

I can say, whatever happens and wherever this Patreon community project goes, i’m so glad i showed up for it. And i really hope you’ll join us there and help to build this into something you want to see in the world too.

And for those of you who could use some extra encouragement:

Just do the damn thing already

That’s a link to episode 1 of my podcast by the way, and some might say it’s super corny (butt i am corny yet earnest haha!) and i remember being so, so scared to start this project too, sitting in an ice cold Berlin apartment telling myself stories rooted in doubt and fear, but here we are! Not to gloss over the grit and say it has been easy! At times, it’s been super hard! But a reminder here that you can do hard things! Hey, we have made it through winter!

Last words on this:

We move, regardless! 🌱
if you’re not feeling ready to go towards something, know this is ay ok too! Trust your own season, your own rhythm. It might be winter still for a while where you are, a quieter season, but know and trust that spring always comes back around, i promise. What’s for you will always be for you, no matter how long it might have been. Practice trusting in your journey. Knowing when to rest, to take a step back to heal, recover and honour that part of your cycle. This is still growth! Even if we can't see the "movement". And, to be honest, i think it's some of the most important growth, you know, the very uncomfortable but necessary part of the process.

Show up for yourself wherever you’re at - honour your feels, your cycles, and perhaps share where you're at with me! I want to know how your journey is going, and if there’s anything i can do to support you, let me know!

Hope there was something here for you!

I love you and thank you for your support. And come join us over on Patreon!

Exciting things are coming!

Dionne

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Honour your own season (we move, regardless!) 🌱 // transcript for ‘I Feel For You’ podcast episode 60

episode playlist ✨

Stuck with a creative project? 😩Or what to focus on?! 🥴Let me help you out of a rut! 💁🏽‍♀️✨

Your online collaborative creative coach (or “wizard”, if you like! 🧙🏽‍♀️) At your service!

Stuck with a creative project? 😩
Or what to focus on?! 🥴
Let me help you out of a rut! 💁🏽‍♀️✨

Your online collaborative creative coach (or “wizard”, if you like! 🧙🏽‍♀️)
At your service!